Wednesday, October 21, 2009
a few days without my mummy...
mum has left singapore, to malaysia to see my dear young cousin, who's fighting cancer at a young age of only 15.. i really hope that she can be strong and fight on!!!
so without my mum, and i'm the eldest at home, so i'll have to set a good example... to be disciplined to wash clothes.. din really sweep the floor, think my dad swept it... i love being the nutritionist at home... so i'll be the one cutting the fruits at home for my dad... thanks papa for eating fruits tt i cut! =)
as for my 2 sisters, i couldnt ask for much... onli wish tt they will be home to slp every night... n to eileen, rmber to stay focussed for ur studies...
i've nv been so focussed in life b4... knowing wat i really want, n doing everything as best as i could to make things go right... my studies, my leisure, and work... everything is just falling in place so nicely, thanks to u guys.. =)
=D
mum has left singapore, to malaysia to see my dear young cousin, who's fighting cancer at a young age of only 15.. i really hope that she can be strong and fight on!!!
so without my mum, and i'm the eldest at home, so i'll have to set a good example... to be disciplined to wash clothes.. din really sweep the floor, think my dad swept it... i love being the nutritionist at home... so i'll be the one cutting the fruits at home for my dad... thanks papa for eating fruits tt i cut! =)
as for my 2 sisters, i couldnt ask for much... onli wish tt they will be home to slp every night... n to eileen, rmber to stay focussed for ur studies...
i've nv been so focussed in life b4... knowing wat i really want, n doing everything as best as i could to make things go right... my studies, my leisure, and work... everything is just falling in place so nicely, thanks to u guys.. =)
=D
smiled at 12:22 AM.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
i'm sorry if i ever showed my friends attitude these days...
i just cant believe it.. one fall at the photoshoot can lead to such consequences... everyone is going for albert's audition now.. but i'm here resting at home with a disgusting sprain at the toe, and the pain extends up to my knee..
this is the most serious of all dance-related injuries tt i ever had.. and i cant help but think what if i can never dance again...
is it really time for me to stop dancing?
dun wanna think abt it. i hope this sprain will heal soon.
and, one more mid term to go. time to study..
i just cant believe it.. one fall at the photoshoot can lead to such consequences... everyone is going for albert's audition now.. but i'm here resting at home with a disgusting sprain at the toe, and the pain extends up to my knee..
this is the most serious of all dance-related injuries tt i ever had.. and i cant help but think what if i can never dance again...
is it really time for me to stop dancing?
dun wanna think abt it. i hope this sprain will heal soon.
and, one more mid term to go. time to study..
smiled at 9:45 AM.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
2 more days!!!
we're all practising so hard, just for one item for this dr...
i think we're all not just tired physically.. but also mentally as well.... plus all the mid terms coming up... it's really v bad... too close to the dates for mid terms alr... den dunno y will feel tired v v easily...
hope friday's performance will be good... after performance is chiong mid terms liao.. damn sian... need some motivation!!!
we're all practising so hard, just for one item for this dr...
i think we're all not just tired physically.. but also mentally as well.... plus all the mid terms coming up... it's really v bad... too close to the dates for mid terms alr... den dunno y will feel tired v v easily...
hope friday's performance will be good... after performance is chiong mid terms liao.. damn sian... need some motivation!!!
smiled at 12:36 AM.
Monday, September 21, 2009
sushi making again!!!
this morning wanted to make sushi! but tmd, when i was getting ready the stuff, i realise the sushi vinegar tt i used expired 18days ago!!! =( so sian!!! den i had to go all the way to hou pt ntuc to get it... put the rice in the cooker n left house.. i spent 15mins waiting for a bus to take 1 stop down cos i dun wanna sweat... haha.. bought the stuff, n walked home... reached home all sweaty.. n i realise the rice was too wet!!! =( i think i took too long to come home... den the rice was all sticky.. n i tasted this other brand of sushi vinegar, it tasted so bland!!! in the end, after wrapping everything, the sushi tasted so bland also!!! haiz.. so this time, all my sushi have to be eaten with soy sauce... hmm..
shun's leaving tonight!! haiz... another good buddy leaving... so sad... girl, all the best in bristal(not sure if i got it right) ya! =)
this whole week's going to be super busy for me!!! every night got rehearsal in school!!! =(((( tt means i onli have morning to abt 2-3pm to study every day... man.... yvonne go go go!!!
this morning wanted to make sushi! but tmd, when i was getting ready the stuff, i realise the sushi vinegar tt i used expired 18days ago!!! =( so sian!!! den i had to go all the way to hou pt ntuc to get it... put the rice in the cooker n left house.. i spent 15mins waiting for a bus to take 1 stop down cos i dun wanna sweat... haha.. bought the stuff, n walked home... reached home all sweaty.. n i realise the rice was too wet!!! =( i think i took too long to come home... den the rice was all sticky.. n i tasted this other brand of sushi vinegar, it tasted so bland!!! in the end, after wrapping everything, the sushi tasted so bland also!!! haiz.. so this time, all my sushi have to be eaten with soy sauce... hmm..
shun's leaving tonight!! haiz... another good buddy leaving... so sad... girl, all the best in bristal(not sure if i got it right) ya! =)
this whole week's going to be super busy for me!!! every night got rehearsal in school!!! =(((( tt means i onli have morning to abt 2-3pm to study every day... man.... yvonne go go go!!!
smiled at 12:27 PM.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
oh man!!! today is 090909!!! once in a hundred years!
i doubt i will ever get to experience another 090909 [which shd be 09/09/2109] in my lifetime.. so today is really a day to celebrate and rejoice about!!
went for tut in the morning.. den met zhihan to chat chat a bit.. den met mummy for lunch in sch.. den went home n brought parents to my workplace... quite ok la... this day is special in the sense, i got to have dinner with my parents on a weekday!!! which usually i do not have the time to... and yes! i'm home early today as well.. family time!!!
tml morning i have driving... i cannot forget!!!
and many midterms are coming up from nx week on, plus Dance Reflections on 25th sept!!!
busy busy!
new quote learnt today: enjoy when you can, endure when you must!
i doubt i will ever get to experience another 090909 [which shd be 09/09/2109] in my lifetime.. so today is really a day to celebrate and rejoice about!!
went for tut in the morning.. den met zhihan to chat chat a bit.. den met mummy for lunch in sch.. den went home n brought parents to my workplace... quite ok la... this day is special in the sense, i got to have dinner with my parents on a weekday!!! which usually i do not have the time to... and yes! i'm home early today as well.. family time!!!
tml morning i have driving... i cannot forget!!!
and many midterms are coming up from nx week on, plus Dance Reflections on 25th sept!!!
busy busy!
new quote learnt today: enjoy when you can, endure when you must!
smiled at 9:26 PM.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
yay!! had dinner with my bestest friends just now!!! woohoo!! feels like so long nv meet them le.. got so many things to update abt... sam n eri as usual talks the most... haiz.. i feel bad!! i made them waited for me for half an hour!!! i din know the bus took so long la!! i tot i could reach earlier... hmmm.. den towards the end, i almost wanted to doze off!!! argh!! so tired! this morning woke up too early le..
this morning's combined rehearsal was ok.. i could feel the synergy spirit.. we're really one synergy... of cos there are many things tt we can improve on.. jiayou synergy!!! i'm sure we can do it!!!
tml morning got tuition again... quite sian cos sunday have to wake up early... hmmm...
this morning's combined rehearsal was ok.. i could feel the synergy spirit.. we're really one synergy... of cos there are many things tt we can improve on.. jiayou synergy!!! i'm sure we can do it!!!
tml morning got tuition again... quite sian cos sunday have to wake up early... hmmm...
smiled at 11:26 PM.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
wth!! wat a day.. waited 2 hours for kelvin to go donate blood tgt.. den went for lunch den go mpsh to donate.. was damn shocked when i went in, first time see so many pp go donate blood lor.. den queue for one stupid hour b4 it's my turn... going to run late for driving.. in the end, becos my right vein is too small and i have no much time to donate, i had to withdraw from donating today!!! and i cant donate until 2pm tml!!! =(
took a cab to ubi for driving, waaaa, was 15min late.. went to drive ard, did a few U turns and keep on driving left n right turns.. in the end the instructor keep on scolding me thruout the whole lesson.. haiz.. he complain my moving-off and turns are bad!!! =((( i've tried my best to get the biting point le... haiz.. things could be so bad man...
luckily dinner with kelly was gd!!! kel, hope u have a great trip overseas ok!!! come back with a bf? lol.. grew up with u since sec sch, haven seen u with a guy b4!!! it's time to find a guy!! haha!!!
feeling fat nowadays... watever the fat percentage test, dun even dare to go n take... how??? now also nv do technique class, i'm losing stamina, losing muscles!!!
i wanna do technique classssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let's go jogging one day...
took a cab to ubi for driving, waaaa, was 15min late.. went to drive ard, did a few U turns and keep on driving left n right turns.. in the end the instructor keep on scolding me thruout the whole lesson.. haiz.. he complain my moving-off and turns are bad!!! =((( i've tried my best to get the biting point le... haiz.. things could be so bad man...
luckily dinner with kelly was gd!!! kel, hope u have a great trip overseas ok!!! come back with a bf? lol.. grew up with u since sec sch, haven seen u with a guy b4!!! it's time to find a guy!! haha!!!
feeling fat nowadays... watever the fat percentage test, dun even dare to go n take... how??? now also nv do technique class, i'm losing stamina, losing muscles!!!
i wanna do technique classssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let's go jogging one day...
smiled at 8:47 PM.
Monday, August 31, 2009
It's 1am..
this is bad.. spent one whole night watching tv n playing com.. did not do anything productive!! tml's the start of new week.. von, do sth productive!! every hour, every minute counts!!!
treasure time cos time is precious.. i must find my own time!!!
this is bad.. spent one whole night watching tv n playing com.. did not do anything productive!! tml's the start of new week.. von, do sth productive!! every hour, every minute counts!!!
treasure time cos time is precious.. i must find my own time!!!
smiled at 1:06 AM.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Yesterday was a fun night!!!
Thanks everyone!!
And I promise to live life happily!!
Love you guys.. <3
Thanks everyone!!
And I promise to live life happily!!
Love you guys.. <3
smiled at 10:26 AM.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
hmm, it's been so long since i last blogged!!! oh man, school as started, back to the usual boring sians life..
just read back a few of my entries, realise i've been such an emo shit.. i must change!!!
all the way von!
just read back a few of my entries, realise i've been such an emo shit.. i must change!!!
all the way von!
smiled at 11:21 AM.
Friday, May 29, 2009
"There are many factors that go into what makes a dancer—the right physique and proportions; exposure to music, literature, and art; environment and family. But then there is something else, something that is God-given: spirit."
today's the release of the results for the past sem... wish me luck!
smiled at 10:03 AM.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
hmmm.. 3 weeks into hols le... currently feel v v relaxed n comfortable with life.. watched a few shows... 霹雳MIT and 心星的淚光. both are v different but v nice!!!
霹雳MIT is nice cos of the story n the suspense tt carried through throughout the whole show.. actors are rather cute at times.. a v different kind of storyline as compared to most shows nowadays...
心星的淚光 is nice cos the story is unlike most Ou Xiang Jus tt i watched... it portrays a v realistic kind of relationship tt any couple faces and it's v real... and i really like the optimism tt the female lead Xiao Lu has... really like her character alot alot... i wanna be like her!!!!!!!!!!!
hmm, sam just went for her summer program ystdae... the thing tt i dun understand is, y did she not inform us tt she is leaving? haiz.. i'm feeling a lil disappointed.. in her n in me.. none of us was told she's leaving ystdae... but she told me she was leaving in late may, n i as her fren totally forgotten abt it... haiz... sam, if u r reading this, i just want to tell u tt, i hope u will take gd care of urself over there... msn or email me whenever u miss home or whenever u r feeling low k... jiayou n enjoy urself ba..
May is coming to a close.. vonvon jiayou!
霹雳MIT is nice cos of the story n the suspense tt carried through throughout the whole show.. actors are rather cute at times.. a v different kind of storyline as compared to most shows nowadays...
心星的淚光 is nice cos the story is unlike most Ou Xiang Jus tt i watched... it portrays a v realistic kind of relationship tt any couple faces and it's v real... and i really like the optimism tt the female lead Xiao Lu has... really like her character alot alot... i wanna be like her!!!!!!!!!!!
hmm, sam just went for her summer program ystdae... the thing tt i dun understand is, y did she not inform us tt she is leaving? haiz.. i'm feeling a lil disappointed.. in her n in me.. none of us was told she's leaving ystdae... but she told me she was leaving in late may, n i as her fren totally forgotten abt it... haiz... sam, if u r reading this, i just want to tell u tt, i hope u will take gd care of urself over there... msn or email me whenever u miss home or whenever u r feeling low k... jiayou n enjoy urself ba..
May is coming to a close.. vonvon jiayou!
smiled at 10:52 PM.
Friday, May 22, 2009
yay!! managed to complete another day just today itself! hmmm... this one is slightly bigger, more for putting camera or those bigger PDAs ba... n i like this design more... haha.. but, i also dunno y i make so many pouches for... camera pouch like alot of pp have le.. hmmm...
smiled at 12:06 AM.
Monday, May 18, 2009
yay completed after 5 days! part-timely.. hehe... i wanna make more stuffs!!! a hp pouch for everyone in the family... den if got time, might consider making other things? hmmm... staying at home is so shuang for me.. but today is exceptionally sian.. been complaining to charmaine abt this... how? realli a bit sian today... wat can i do today???
smiled at 12:34 PM.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
yays! my family ate crabs again on my parent's wedding anniversary.. haha.. my dear mum so cute.. put the cai also must put until so pretty.. make me go n take a photo of it! =)
recently papa has been very interested in planting and growing sunflowers! and they are v pretty indeed! =) just a few photos of the many that we have.. he even went to his workplace to plant sunflowers in the plots.. haha..
yes! synergy's gonnna restage spirit on BUTS stage!! argh!!! i hope i will be able to get through auditions, first prac on tues was not bad.. still can rmber the stuff.. =))
i dunno y but suddenly i feel like knitting stuff again.. so today, i asked my mum about the basics and i started knitting again! want to knit a hp pouch for my mum n dad... den see wat other stuff i can knit after tt.. hmmmm....
shopping at Silent Roses.
smiled at 3:00 PM.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
yay!! it's the end of exams!!!
but, dunno y i feel v sian abt ending exams...
many pp are looking for part-time jobs..
some of my friends have already taken up jobs as temperature takers...
but i feel v sian.. dun feel like doing those dangerous and low-paying job...
i rather stay at home n make more accessories!!!
haha.. hope can come up with more new designs during this hols!
onli 3months holidays... and i will be involved in science orientation as ogl... so in effect, left onli 2 months of free time for myself..
NOT ENOUGH!!!
how i wish i can graduate soon..
but i dun wanna go out n work... dun feel like working outside lei...
haiz...
sianness...
but, dunno y i feel v sian abt ending exams...
many pp are looking for part-time jobs..
some of my friends have already taken up jobs as temperature takers...
but i feel v sian.. dun feel like doing those dangerous and low-paying job...
i rather stay at home n make more accessories!!!
haha.. hope can come up with more new designs during this hols!
onli 3months holidays... and i will be involved in science orientation as ogl... so in effect, left onli 2 months of free time for myself..
NOT ENOUGH!!!
how i wish i can graduate soon..
but i dun wanna go out n work... dun feel like working outside lei...
haiz...
sianness...
smiled at 10:03 PM.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
hmm suddenly feel like blogging..
i'm in the midst of exams currently!! thanks to all who wished me luck!! =))
it's so hard to control myself.. not to play com.. not to watch tv.. haha.. so luckily!! have charmaine to pei me study tgt!!! she's such a sweet girl.. hha. thanks for studying with me lei!! =)
i have 2 more papers to go! nx mon n tues..
so many pp who i know have ended exams.. hmmm...
after exams i have lots of places tt i want to go, and i have many things tt i wanna do, and so many pp who i wanna meet up!!
looking fwd to the end of exams...
i'm in the midst of exams currently!! thanks to all who wished me luck!! =))
it's so hard to control myself.. not to play com.. not to watch tv.. haha.. so luckily!! have charmaine to pei me study tgt!!! she's such a sweet girl.. hha. thanks for studying with me lei!! =)
i have 2 more papers to go! nx mon n tues..
so many pp who i know have ended exams.. hmmm...
after exams i have lots of places tt i want to go, and i have many things tt i wanna do, and so many pp who i wanna meet up!!
looking fwd to the end of exams...
smiled at 11:42 PM.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
exams are coming in less than 2 weeks...
my neck is aching worser each day...
i cant study properly...
i cant slp properly...
i cant sit properly...
i feel like jelly...
wish for exams to finish asap...
wish for freedom to come...
wish my neck to heal asap...
wish to dance once again...
my neck is aching worser each day...
i cant study properly...
i cant slp properly...
i cant sit properly...
i feel like jelly...
wish for exams to finish asap...
wish for freedom to come...
wish my neck to heal asap...
wish to dance once again...
smiled at 9:20 PM.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
ok.. one month nv blog le.. haha.. i'm blogging for a purpose now!!!
NUS Dance Synergy (yes leonard, this is my blog=D) will be having our very own concert Touch - Terpsichore 2009 this coming wednesday 25th march 2009, 8pm at NUS UCC Theatre. It is free admission, but you have to come at 7pm to collect the tickets on first come first served basis.
lol.. tt's was quite long-winded.. anw, now cant book tickets.. so quite sian.. cant really cfm which of my frens are coming to support me/us.. hmm.. But i still hope to see my frens from everywhere tt i know come n support me! i really enjoy dancing alot, and having pp to support you with wat u like doing makes it even much more worthy of you putting the time n effort to dance for them.. yupp, so supporters is v v v impt! i dun wish to perform to empty space in the theatre.....
smiled at 1:25 AM.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
hmm so long nv blog le.... erica just reminded me that i have a blog here.. lol
school's been getting harder and harder...
hope this sem i will still be able to do well...
in march will have an upcoming dance concert.. but very very near the end of yr exams..
also dunno if will have anybody come to support..
hmmm...
den last sat met up with xh, karen n geraldine at xh's house for steamboat..
can say it was damn fun.. really miss them.. n i hope i can meet them for self-cooked dinner every month!!!!! they're really my gd sisters... =) mummy, ger, xh i love u all!! friends forever k!
school's been getting harder and harder...
hope this sem i will still be able to do well...
in march will have an upcoming dance concert.. but very very near the end of yr exams..
also dunno if will have anybody come to support..
hmmm...
den last sat met up with xh, karen n geraldine at xh's house for steamboat..
can say it was damn fun.. really miss them.. n i hope i can meet them for self-cooked dinner every month!!!!! they're really my gd sisters... =) mummy, ger, xh i love u all!! friends forever k!
smiled at 11:28 PM.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
this is my number 200th post.
chinese new year's coming!! well.. i feel not really excited abt it.. firstly, no time to shop for my new year clothes!!! had a mad rush trying to find nice clothes, in the end, the clothes tt i have were quite normal.. hmm second, it's in the midst of the start of tutorials!! means either i chiong tutorials now, or i have to do it during cny.. and i have many makeup classes to attend... haiz..
just wished that everything would have went much smoothly during the start of the yr.. now there's so much things i have to catch up on.. my dance.. my sch work.. my family..
i wish i can have 48 hours a day...
chinese new year's coming!! well.. i feel not really excited abt it.. firstly, no time to shop for my new year clothes!!! had a mad rush trying to find nice clothes, in the end, the clothes tt i have were quite normal.. hmm second, it's in the midst of the start of tutorials!! means either i chiong tutorials now, or i have to do it during cny.. and i have many makeup classes to attend... haiz..
just wished that everything would have went much smoothly during the start of the yr.. now there's so much things i have to catch up on.. my dance.. my sch work.. my family..
i wish i can have 48 hours a day...
smiled at 2:56 PM.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
i wanna be a happy girl.. how i wish i can be that girl who plays the swing so carefreely...
how i wish i have the best of every world, where every part of my life is perfect, flawless...
how i wish things could be so much simpler...
to the good old times...
i miss talking, playing, or even bickering with my youngest sister...
it was in such a short time that everything happened... but i felt like i lost her for a long long time...
just wat is the problem...?
i just dont get it...
smiled at 12:40 AM.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
HAPPY 2009!
hmm.. it's a brand new year.. brand new start.. really look forward to this year.. and hope that things will be so much so much more fruitful... i dun like to waste time..
met up with sam, erica and yijia on 30th.. went to bugis b4 we go vivo and sam left with her darling.. haha.. i made sushi for them! first time in my life.. n it looks good!
the different kinds of tiao wei liao.. and my recipe book..
rice! mixed with 4 big spoons of sushi vinegar..
my not-fresh salmon.. so i went to cook it.. lol..
my rubbish!
this is quite interesting.. b4 i cook, i had to skew it to prevent it from curling up when being cooked..
this is the hardest inside-out sushi.. cos the rice is wrapping all the liao.. mine was quite unsuccessful.. cos it felt v loose after i cut it up..
my prawn nigiri sushi.. looks like those pro pro one rite? hhaa
my zi cai maki..
in the making of one of my zi cai maki..
done!
hmm.. it's a brand new year.. brand new start.. really look forward to this year.. and hope that things will be so much so much more fruitful... i dun like to waste time..
met up with sam, erica and yijia on 30th.. went to bugis b4 we go vivo and sam left with her darling.. haha.. i made sushi for them! first time in my life.. n it looks good!
the different kinds of tiao wei liao.. and my recipe book..
rice! mixed with 4 big spoons of sushi vinegar..
my not-fresh salmon.. so i went to cook it.. lol..
my rubbish!
this is quite interesting.. b4 i cook, i had to skew it to prevent it from curling up when being cooked..
this is the hardest inside-out sushi.. cos the rice is wrapping all the liao.. mine was quite unsuccessful.. cos it felt v loose after i cut it up..
my prawn nigiri sushi.. looks like those pro pro one rite? hhaa
my zi cai maki..
in the making of one of my zi cai maki..
done!
looks not bad ba.. sure g0t alot of pp wanna marry me le lor.. haha...
hope they liked my sushi..
the nutcracker was great! cos it's the first time i'm watching a performance in the esplanade theatre.. i went to their studio to watch b4.. but the theatre was so grand! altho i'm seated at a lousy seat, on the first row, it was still quite a great experience watching them.. however, i must say tt it wasnt up to my expectation... i tot there would be sth v nice... but there wasnt.. it was rather boring during the second half of the performance.. hmmm.. anw, thanks jiayi for catching it w me! i wanna watch swan lake w u nx yr! =)
the nutcracker was great! cos it's the first time i'm watching a performance in the esplanade theatre.. i went to their studio to watch b4.. but the theatre was so grand! altho i'm seated at a lousy seat, on the first row, it was still quite a great experience watching them.. however, i must say tt it wasnt up to my expectation... i tot there would be sth v nice... but there wasnt.. it was rather boring during the second half of the performance.. hmmm.. anw, thanks jiayi for catching it w me! i wanna watch swan lake w u nx yr! =)
cam-whoring.. haha.. =))
smiled at 4:53 PM.
Friday, December 19, 2008
been to dance camp.. and genting with my family..
dance camp was damn tiring.. cos we as the seniors, have to do things till late into the night.. so every night sleep v late..den end up like zombie when i go home.. den after one day's rest, the nx day go genting with my family.. hmm.. quite ok ba... played the outdoor theme park for a day.. and shopped for another day.. legs damn aching from the dance camp and from all the walking around..
ystdae went orchard with sam eri n jia.. it's been quite some time since i shopped with them.. we're all still the same old good frens... awaes talking randomly.. laughing tgt.. hha..
haiz.. i miss making accessories.. i miss dancing..
i miss my old school frens..
i hope this holiday never end.. cos i dun miss lectures, tutorials and assignments...
dance camp was damn tiring.. cos we as the seniors, have to do things till late into the night.. so every night sleep v late..den end up like zombie when i go home.. den after one day's rest, the nx day go genting with my family.. hmm.. quite ok ba... played the outdoor theme park for a day.. and shopped for another day.. legs damn aching from the dance camp and from all the walking around..
ystdae went orchard with sam eri n jia.. it's been quite some time since i shopped with them.. we're all still the same old good frens... awaes talking randomly.. laughing tgt.. hha..
haiz.. i miss making accessories.. i miss dancing..
i miss my old school frens..
i hope this holiday never end.. cos i dun miss lectures, tutorials and assignments...
smiled at 11:15 PM.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
holidays!
hmm.. ended exams on the 2nd.. till now 2 days le... ystdae went bugis with sam n jia.. did some little shopping.. today went for some telemarketing interview... quite a stupid job.. haiz.. i dun feel like working... but i dunno y i went for the interview.. n i cant start work until the 19th... but anyway, just now the interview was at dhoby ghaut.. after the interview, i went walk ard in ps.. haiz.. i felt so lonely walking alone... shopping nv felt tt sad in my life b4.. haiz.. n it's the first time i shop alone after so long.. so weird..
tml will have meeting with dancers.. den costume fitting for chingay..
on sat will have performance at night safari...
on sun will have meeting with dancers again...
monday swimming at shun's condo..
tuesday pre-camp..
wed - sat dance camp..
sun - wed genting with family..
thurs meet sam jia n eri... SDT's nutcracker..
on 20th i planned to go escape with some jc frens.. but also dunno if it will be successful.. haiz..
time is so limited.. but i have so much things to do.. haiz...
exams end le.. but i dun feel happy at all..
hmm.. ended exams on the 2nd.. till now 2 days le... ystdae went bugis with sam n jia.. did some little shopping.. today went for some telemarketing interview... quite a stupid job.. haiz.. i dun feel like working... but i dunno y i went for the interview.. n i cant start work until the 19th... but anyway, just now the interview was at dhoby ghaut.. after the interview, i went walk ard in ps.. haiz.. i felt so lonely walking alone... shopping nv felt tt sad in my life b4.. haiz.. n it's the first time i shop alone after so long.. so weird..
tml will have meeting with dancers.. den costume fitting for chingay..
on sat will have performance at night safari...
on sun will have meeting with dancers again...
monday swimming at shun's condo..
tuesday pre-camp..
wed - sat dance camp..
sun - wed genting with family..
thurs meet sam jia n eri... SDT's nutcracker..
on 20th i planned to go escape with some jc frens.. but also dunno if it will be successful.. haiz..
time is so limited.. but i have so much things to do.. haiz...
exams end le.. but i dun feel happy at all..
smiled at 8:01 PM.
Friday, November 21, 2008
exams are near..
v worried.. scared.. helpless...
been studying like almost 10 hours a day..
butt almost glued to my chair...
been staying at home for 1 week le..
so no life..
tml going for ballet...
hope i wun grow fat....
while staying at home this past week,
i seen the happenings at home..
i can sense the coldness, stillness - until i almost doze off while studying...
i can sense tt bit of hope to see people in the house...
haiz... i feel so so tired.. that i do not wish to give it more thought... i only wish to do well in my exams...
v worried.. scared.. helpless...
been studying like almost 10 hours a day..
butt almost glued to my chair...
been staying at home for 1 week le..
so no life..
tml going for ballet...
hope i wun grow fat....
while staying at home this past week,
i seen the happenings at home..
i can sense the coldness, stillness - until i almost doze off while studying...
i can sense tt bit of hope to see people in the house...
haiz... i feel so so tired.. that i do not wish to give it more thought... i only wish to do well in my exams...
smiled at 11:51 PM.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Up early in the morning...
cos i was reminded someone did not come home...
and from then, i could not sleep... school starts at 12 for me today...
but i could not sleep...
this morning when papa left house, i heard him... sighing... slamming the door...
he is disappointed... disheartened...
when i enter the master room, mummy open her eyes immediately while lying on bed...
i so much hope tt i look a little tall and skinny... so mummy could think she is back...
i dunno what is the fun thing outside, and she is willing to sacrifice her whole family like that... another day is dashed for us just like that... but to her, it is another day earned of fun...
i kept looking at old family photos yesterday... i love those natural smiles on everyone's face... but what about 12 nov? 15 nov? wat will happen on these 2 days? i seriously do not dare to think...
elaine called her last night, crying so badly on the phone... was she crying on the other side of the line? was she at all upset? did she at all realise how wrong she is? have she ever thought of saving her family relationship, just like how she tried to save her own BGR?
we're not a bunch of idiots... we do care for each other, we do love one another, we do punish when one is wrong, we do forgive when one is willing to change, we do feel and get sad...
The important lesson from a mistake is not just to do the right thing, but to admit your mistake and apologise.
waiting for that day...
cos i was reminded someone did not come home...
and from then, i could not sleep... school starts at 12 for me today...
but i could not sleep...
this morning when papa left house, i heard him... sighing... slamming the door...
he is disappointed... disheartened...
when i enter the master room, mummy open her eyes immediately while lying on bed...
i so much hope tt i look a little tall and skinny... so mummy could think she is back...
i dunno what is the fun thing outside, and she is willing to sacrifice her whole family like that... another day is dashed for us just like that... but to her, it is another day earned of fun...
i kept looking at old family photos yesterday... i love those natural smiles on everyone's face... but what about 12 nov? 15 nov? wat will happen on these 2 days? i seriously do not dare to think...
elaine called her last night, crying so badly on the phone... was she crying on the other side of the line? was she at all upset? did she at all realise how wrong she is? have she ever thought of saving her family relationship, just like how she tried to save her own BGR?
we're not a bunch of idiots... we do care for each other, we do love one another, we do punish when one is wrong, we do forgive when one is willing to change, we do feel and get sad...
The important lesson from a mistake is not just to do the right thing, but to admit your mistake and apologise.
waiting for that day...
smiled at 7:49 AM.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Yvonne shd stop all these feelings of sadness...
i really cannot imagine how life will change from now on... i used to have a sister who i dote alot on.. but she preferred that guy...
what is a family dinner without every member of the family?
what is a home with everyone physically in it, but the heart wondering elsewhere?
i dun want and i dun like such a kind of home..
i dun want to cry everyday, every night... at home and in public...
i want to have a good night's rest...
i dun want to feel sorry for papa, who has been thinking of buying a phone for her all the while but nobody appreciates it...
i dun want to feel sorry for papa, to expect so much to see someone at home to accompany him for dinner but in the end, he is disappointed...
i dun want to pity mummy, who will wait by the door every night for someone to come home, but in the end, the person did not return...
i feel full of guilt... full of sadness...
for my loved ones who has been hoping... but when they get nothing in return, i feel so much like hugging them n telling them i love them...
papa says he want to go genting in dec... n onli those who r free to go n want to go will go... it saddens me... when i hear papa said it...
i dun want to do on a FAMILY holiday without every member of the fanily around... what kind of FAMILY is that?
i really cannot imagine how life will change from now on... i used to have a sister who i dote alot on.. but she preferred that guy...
what is a family dinner without every member of the family?
what is a home with everyone physically in it, but the heart wondering elsewhere?
i dun want and i dun like such a kind of home..
i dun want to cry everyday, every night... at home and in public...
i want to have a good night's rest...
i dun want to feel sorry for papa, who has been thinking of buying a phone for her all the while but nobody appreciates it...
i dun want to feel sorry for papa, to expect so much to see someone at home to accompany him for dinner but in the end, he is disappointed...
i dun want to pity mummy, who will wait by the door every night for someone to come home, but in the end, the person did not return...
i feel full of guilt... full of sadness...
for my loved ones who has been hoping... but when they get nothing in return, i feel so much like hugging them n telling them i love them...
papa says he want to go genting in dec... n onli those who r free to go n want to go will go... it saddens me... when i hear papa said it...
i dun want to do on a FAMILY holiday without every member of the fanily around... what kind of FAMILY is that?
smiled at 1:29 PM.
Friday, October 24, 2008
tension
things are not what they used to be...
such tension.. pain.. sadness..
i hate it when i see mummy cry...
i hate it even more when papa cry...
and the reason they cry?
ever since this problem started, everything revolves just around this topic..
whenever mummy talks to me..
whenever elaine talks to me..
and even when papa talks to me...
everyone is expressing concern,
everyone is thinking of ways to improve the situation...
but this girl does not feel anything...
since primary 1, my teacher has always taught me how to differentiate between the good and the bad... my teacher has always taught me to become a good person (hao gong min)...
but how come, my sister can forget everything that were taught since primary 1?
is telling lies good?
is coming home late good?
is not calling your dad when u come home good?
it aches my heart to find out papa is very envious of our neighbour...
they also have 3 daughters...
and everyday, without fail, at least one daughter will wait downstairs for their father to be back from physiotherapy...
it aches my heart when papa did not get what he deserve...
a few days ago, a simple dinner with the whole family made papa so happy..
he kept on joking and laughing...
can u sense his happiness?
and can u sense his pain when he told u that he felt sad reading your letter? what was your damn reaction? do u still think u r right?
things are not what they used to be...
such tension.. pain.. sadness..
i hate it when i see mummy cry...
i hate it even more when papa cry...
and the reason they cry?
ever since this problem started, everything revolves just around this topic..
whenever mummy talks to me..
whenever elaine talks to me..
and even when papa talks to me...
everyone is expressing concern,
everyone is thinking of ways to improve the situation...
but this girl does not feel anything...
since primary 1, my teacher has always taught me how to differentiate between the good and the bad... my teacher has always taught me to become a good person (hao gong min)...
but how come, my sister can forget everything that were taught since primary 1?
is telling lies good?
is coming home late good?
is not calling your dad when u come home good?
it aches my heart to find out papa is very envious of our neighbour...
they also have 3 daughters...
and everyday, without fail, at least one daughter will wait downstairs for their father to be back from physiotherapy...
it aches my heart when papa did not get what he deserve...
a few days ago, a simple dinner with the whole family made papa so happy..
he kept on joking and laughing...
can u sense his happiness?
and can u sense his pain when he told u that he felt sad reading your letter? what was your damn reaction? do u still think u r right?
smiled at 10:00 AM.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
ECP Cycling! so much wonderful memories...
smiled at 12:55 AM.
